Last week, a good friend and mentor of mine overheard a conversation I was having with one of the team leads on my program. I was not satisfied with the leader’s performance and I was not nice in my remarks about what I expected. My friend observed the exchange between me and the team lead and she spoke up and said: “When in doubt, be nice”.
Her comment stung. I pride myself on my political correctness and being nice to others. Being called out for not being nice hurt. And she was right.
The truth is that I have a hard time balancing being kind and getting the results that I want. I am not suggesting that these two things are necessarily mutually exclusive, but I think that I have placed a higher premium on one than on the other. I choose to be nice rather than to be satisfied, and this is a real problem for me.
I was recently in a weekend workshop on growing as a leader. While the workshop helped me to spot several strengths of mine, it also revealed to me a couple of key weaknesses:
- I don’t go for my own personal satisfaction; I am OK with coming up short.
- I am not honest with myself about my lack of satisfaction. I am ok with feeling like a victim, rather than getting what I really want. I don’t tell the truth about what I really feel or mean. (For more about telling the truth, see my previous post Tell the Truth).
Going for Your Own Personal Satisfaction
Let’s start with the idea of going for your own personal satisfaction. The principle of responsibility says that I am responsible for my actions and my outcomes. If I don’t get the results that I want, or if I am not satisfied, that is my responsibility and mine alone. That is all great but the problem for me is this – I am OK with being dissatisfied as it gives me something to complain about, a reason to blame someone else, a way to be a victim, or just a general ‘out’ about not giving it my all.
The better approach is to go for 100% satisfaction of what I want. This requires being clear about what it is that I want and working with others to make sure it happens. No excuses, no complaints, and no blaming others. Just going for what I want and not being satisfied with less.
I like what I wrote about personal satisfaction in this post from January 2009:
“Instead of seeking comfort, we should seek our own satisfaction. In every situation, we should be monitoring our own level of satisfaction and using that as an internal gauge for whether we are doing the right thing. My mentor Rich Blue calls this going for our 100% satisfaction. If you seek to get 100% satisfaction out of every meeting, presentation, project assignment, and workshop, you won’t have to worry about feeling comfortable. Being satisfied is a higher value than being comfortable.”
Let me give you a real-life example. If you are at a restaurant and you order a salad with the dressing on the side, what are the odds that the waiter will remember and bring your salad with the dressing on the side? I do this often and I think the odds are about 90% – that is, the waiter will correctly put the dressing on the side about 9 out of 10 times. What happens when they don’t, and they bring the salad with the dressing already on it? What do you do when that happens?
I know what I do – I eat the salad. I will sometimes mutter under my breath, or make idle threats about reducing the tip, but I rarely draw attention to the fact that I did not get what I ordered and I am not 100% satisfied. You see, I have been conditioned from an early age to be OK with that, to even expect that I will be disappointed and to minimize the importance of it. This is not a healthy response for a number of reasons, not the least of which is that it builds resentment that can surface later in undesired ways.
I don’t tell the Truth about my Satisfaction
The second big idea here is that I don’t tell the truth about my level of satisfaction. Just like with the salad, I suck it up. Quietly. I tell myself it is not really important, or not worth fighting about.
I am increasingly aware that I do better or worse with certain people or in certain situations. With some people and in some situations, I have this large blindspot that I have come to think of as a form of ‘corporate denial’. It is as though with certain people or situations, I completely toss out my expectations the idea that I could be personally satisfied. I am unable – no, unwilling – to clearly see the truth in what is happening and orient to my own satisfaction. A good example of this is with authority figures.
I am learning that this corporate denial has become so ingrained in me that I think of it as normal. It is like the water in the fish tank that the fish cannot see or appreciate.
How does all this relate to being nice? Well, generally I am very nice. I am often ‘nice’ at the expense of being effective, as I can be in the restaurant example. The problem is that while I may be nice on the surface, underneath the surface I am hurt and angry.
Let’s be clear though – being hurt and angry is what I have co-created. It is also what I expect to happen. The shift that I need to make is to be crystal clear about what I want and determined to have things the way that I want them. I need to go for 100% satisfaction for myself. This needs to be a top priority.
Initially, my need to go for 100% satisfaction may come at the expense of being nice. Because I have been off balance for so long, the pendulum needs to swing the other way. I need to have an extreme focus on my 100% satisfaction.
So for me to speak up that day and in an unkind way to challenge my team lead to do their job better, was actually a grow for me and a step in the right direction. It wasn’t pretty, and I know that I can improve on that. But I need to continue to get in there and be willing to be messy but insist that things be done the way that I want them done.
I’d be interested in hearing your thoughts and reactions, in particular, if you pride yourself on being a nice guy ora nice girl.